Before I was married, for many years I struggled with things.
My mothers main concern was that I would struggle like her.
She had 3 children.
The last one she prayed very hard for.
During her 2nd pregnancy (I was 2 years old) she was diagnosed with a tumor.
In order to save her and the baby, the baby had to be removed.
4 years passed before she had her beautiful boy.
She was told she could no longer have babies.
After lots of praying she was able to have one more before she had her baby home removed.
Through out my teen years I struggled to the point where we weren't sure I would be able to bear any children, or at least not very many.
When Casey and I talked about getting married.
You know after I actually allowed talk about it.
I told him I would be getting married only if children were in the plan.
Even though, I wasn't even sure if it was possible.
My mom works the energy and for the month before our wedding she did what she could to try to help me.
During that time I prayed to the Lord that he would allow me to have at least one child.
If I would be able to have one I would do nothing to prevent having another one.
I would let him decide what the time was right for me to have another one.
I also promised that if he lend me little angels I would take care of them no matter what trials came with them.
When Eliana was born the Doctors flooded me with information on all kinds of birth control like they do with all the ladies.
But the promise I made ran through my head as well as who even knows if I could have another one.
May be I got lucky.
Skip ahead and three months later I was pregnant with Liam.
After two miscarriages we are now expecting a little Mr. once again.
My children may be rowdy.
They may not be as still as other children.
They are still babies, so they are pretty loud.
But they are a blessing.
With every pregnancy I still fear the worst.
My health, because of my mom's history.
Their health, especially with Liam's history.
I am not in any competition with anyone.
I am not trying to pop a kid every year.
I have always dreamed of a big family.
Kids of all ages running around.
Maybe a dozen kids.
I may not be the best mom or an expert but I love them.
I wanted them here.
And we are sooooo excited to have another little man.
Boys watch out, Eliana will be having 2 bodyguards soon.
So this one goes out to the ones who told me
"Wait 6 years or so..."
"Oh! You have a boy and a girl?! That's perfect! Now you can stop!"
Nope.
Sorry.
Call me crazy.
Call me weird but I love little hands and feet and hearing the steps they take running around.
The loud yells.
The potty breaks I take advantage of and just sit there sometimes and wait and time how long it takes before I am interrupted.
The funny things they say.
Moments I dreamed of but feared would not be possible.
So today we have an ultrasound.
Eliana was so excited she kept saying "You see da baby?!"
Liam was just snoring in his car seat in a corner.
He wasn't too thrilled.
Heart sounded beautiful.
He is such a mover.
But really our other two are the same way.
They keep me on my toes until Casey makes it home.
He was showing us his beautiful spine, as you can see so clearly.
This was only a gender check.
The anatomy ultrasound is in 5 weeks.
He was tumbling and rolling like it was no ones business.
I must say I was surprised.
I thought it was going to be a girl.
And I was hoping it would be a girl so Eliana had a sister.
I always wanted one.
Either way we already love the little man.
Liam was the least thrilled.
He took the sonogram and did everything he could to it.
After throwing it off to the side he was so pleased with his work.
Eliana was so excited though.
She didn't want to let go even though I am sure she couldn't tell what it was.
The only thing now is thinking of names.
I am open to suggestions.
So hard to find a name both families can pronounce.
I know some people have messaged me and asked several questions.
Here are a few answers.
-Nausea:
Uy! I have never been so sick in my life. The worst part. I would not and could not puke. It was not on my agenda. So lots of snacking!
-Clothes:
I haven't worn my pre-preg clothes since before Eliana so I pretty much went straight to maternity pants. Even when I wasn't pregnant (which if you are asking has only been about 8 months of my nearly 3 years married life) I still wore my maternity pants and yoga pants. They are just comfortable and no zipper. Just pull up.
-Cravings:
I actually have a list somewhere but the most thing I have craved like crazy is Wendy's #6 Spicy Chicken Sandwich and uncaffinated Pepsi.
-Weight:
I gained about 5 lbs the first 3 months but apparently I lost 3 in the last month. It's fine with me if I just stay in the weight throughout the pregnancy but we will see. The midwive actually questioned if I was throwing up. Nope.
-How far?:
I am just under 4 months. I am due June 1 2014. I didn't know when I got pregnant so we had to have an ultrasound. I was thinking I was more of due May 22. But they measured June 1. But with my last two kids I was told they were measuring a week smaller. So really I wouldn't be surprised if he is too. Either way I am due sometime around those dates.
We also have other news but that will wait until we get an actual answer! Until then, farewell my friends and family!
With love,
The Crasey Callisons
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